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check my da for the first time in years and i have 1k in messages lol wow

people don't care unless there's something you have that they want I'm so disappointed and lost when it comes to hoping for some sort of positive ray of light to shine through my life. even the people who i trust the most in, deep down i feel like they aren't there for me 100% like i've always been for them. I'm hurting a lot lately, and I hope that nobody notices, because if they do that means I'm right and I have nobody- and i hope this doesn't make my true friends think i don't appreciate them, with what's been going on lately I just can't tell who's real anymore.

its 4:55am, can't sleep my mind is racing and my eyes are burning I can hear my mom yellig about it already in the morning I figured I haven't updated or done anything in a while, so here I am delusional and hallucinating I figured I'm getting less then three hours of sleep, i'd just pass it up and take a nap later, i'll probably regret it at sunrise like i usually do cause laying here listening to my dogs dream downstairs for hours on end is getting ridiculous (been here since 1:12am). I have a feeling a lot in my life is about to change, but I have yet to find out if it's going to be an up or a down.